What you want to lose

You tried to shake it, the fear
with its white head and cut skin, the soapy eyelid's
grace. If freedom is underground, you would dig
a hole for yourself.
Scare the family – make them wonder why you can't quit
smoking sunlight, spreading legs
for sailors. Why you are still on the earth
when they've tried everything
to get you to the dead zone.

You can't take it away. He's breathing every time
you breathe.
He walks with the girls, unnatural selection.
A comparison:
not as fine as the orange orchid girl you once were,
and tonight, tonight
is another dive bomb. You can't stop the fall
of leaves and names.
The girls will go freely

with him.